This is the story of my induction into the bizarre, nominally Christian cult calling itself "The Family," originally known as "Children of God." My story, however, is not about Christianity but about love, lust, betrayal, mind control, mental abuse, health crisis, and lack of care.

In 1978, as a naïve ailing 26 year old, I have a chance encounter in a Los Angeles shopping center with, a missionary named Gideon who introduced me to his dreams, desires, and deceptions. Lured by his seeming devotion to me and to God, as well as his sizzling sexuality, and yearning for a meaningful role in the world, I fell in loveboth with Gideon and the spiritual promise he was offering. What followed was a torrent of emotions, especially when I was asked to use my body to win souls for Jesus. Caught in the whirlpool of love, sacred aspiration and unbridled sexuality, I attempted to reconcile my feelings for Gideon and God with the teachings of the cults self-proclaimed prophet, Moses David.

Ultimately I learned that I had to find my own truth or lose my soul.


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